Asides

This past week has been one of the busiest I’ve had in a long time. Things changed suddenly at work and I had to take on extra responsibilities. It wasn’t part of the plan, but when someone on the team has to step away, you do what’s needed.

The truth is, it wasn’t easy. There were ups and downs every day. Some moments I felt completely drained, wondering how to keep up with everything. Other times, I felt proud of figuring things out and keeping things moving. These situations really test your patience and your ability to stay focused when everything seems to be happening at once.

On top of the extra workload, I also had to support a co-worker who was going through a difficult time. It wasn’t just about covering his tasks—it was about being there for him, guiding him through some things, and making sure he didn’t feel alone in all of this. That part mattered as much as the work itself.

There was also a moment where things got heated in a discussion, and I had to step in to bring some balance and calm the situation down. It reminded me how important it is to keep the team together, especially when stress levels are high. Sometimes, the real challenge isn’t just finishing the work—it’s keeping people grounded and working together.

One thing I noticed is how much we can adapt when we have no choice. At first, it feels impossible, but then you start to find a rhythm. You learn new things, take on tasks you’ve never done before, and somehow manage to make it work. I think that’s one of the hidden benefits of challenges—they force you to grow in ways you wouldn’t if everything stayed comfortable.

Next week is going to be the same, so the marathon isn’t over yet. It’s going to be tough, and I know I’ll be tired, but I’m trying to see it as an opportunity. These moments can either break you or make you better. I’d rather take the second option. If nothing else, this whole experience is teaching me that I can handle more than I thought I could. And that’s something valuable to take forward.

In the end, it’s about perspective. Work will always have its hard days, but if we can use them to learn, they’re not wasted. That’s what I’m holding on to right now.

I’ve probably talked about this before, but it’s something I keep coming back to. When I was younger, I thought age was just a number. I figured I knew more and understood things better than a lot of older people. Turns out, I was wrong.

Now, even though I’m still pretty young, I get that older folks have a ton more experience than I do. They’ve been through things I haven’t, and they’ve learned stuff that I just can’t pick up without living more of life myself.

I used to think respect had to be earned, but now I feel like everyone deserves respect by default—unless they give me a reason not to.

Especially when it comes to my elders, I really should show respect. They most probably have wisdom and life lessons that I don’t, and even if they aren’t always perfect, I want to approach them with respect because there’s a lot I can learn from their experiences. Their choices come from real-life stuff, and listening to that can really help me out.

If you’re reading this through your RSS feed reader, you’re my good friend. After all ups and downs and mood changes, I could say you should have deleted this blog from your feed but if you didn’t, I want to know you more. Please message me.

I still have a lot of mixed feelings about this. Writing feels good but sharing and caring about this blog, or any other online presence, is hard for me. It makes me feel overexposed, makes me feel vulnerable, or even pointless. But I decided to continue writing and sharing, for my own mental health and benefit.

While this web site was down, I took the opportunity to do more digital detoxing. Deleted more and more online accounts, making the number under a hundred, and did some steps to achieve more security and privacy.

I did a mistake of publishing this blog on a personal domain for a while, and I regretted that decision, making my domain public opened doors to spam emails and attracted unwanted attention, and this conflicted with the need to keep the domain and email private. So I moved the private email to another domain, and the change is in process.

I also did some organizing to separate my online identities with ones I share publicly, and did my best to have the best possible approach towards it, respecting my privacy and security.

I tried to explore new things. Eating new food, trying new fashion, using technologies I haven’t tried, playing some board games, and enjoying awesome music. Simone , as generous as always, gifted me his music and I’ve been enjoying them on my last two road trips.

I also been watching two new series lately, bringing back family movie/series nights just like how it was 20 years ago. I still get the same feeling, and it’s very joyful.

It’s spring and we have been enjoying greengage for the last month. They are one of my favorite fruits, and I had a lot of them lately, more than I should have. Definitely worth it though. I waste a lot of money on stupid things but this one I’m not ashamed and I don’t regret it.

Work has been good. I’m learning a lot and my co-workers are super nice. I respect them a lot and they respect me. It’s still a new experience for me and I’m thankful for the opportunity I have. It has its ups and downs but it’s all for my own good, I believe.

I’ve been blogging here for over five years, and now I find myself somewhat tired of it. It used to be fun and helped me take my mind off things, but now I feel like it’s becoming a burden.

It’s the last place I’m online, the last place I regularly update, and the only place I share my ideas. However, I have a strange feeling about it—a sense of disappointment and discouragement.

I feel like I have nothing valuable to share with others anymore. It seems pointless to share my political views, ideological beliefs, and understanding of the world. Apart from free software, I don’t think there’s anything anyone would find useful to read here. I’m empty of new ideas, tired of sharing them, and too busy to curate any meaningful writing.

I’ve thought hard about deleting this blog. I did it some time ago, but I later regretted my decision and brought it back. Now, I’m considering purging everything again. I’m even thinking about removing the DNS records so that there would be no web page, not even an error page. However, I know I’ll miss it. I find something interesting to share, and I regret that I don’t have a place to put it. I’ll have something to say, and I’ll feel sorry that I purged the only place I could say it freely.

I know it’s my safe haven, and I mostly write for myself rather than for readers. I don’t try to attract people; my goal is to express my thoughts and feelings freely. I’ve thought about deleting this blog, it’s been on my mind for a long time, and I find it too difficult. Mostly because I feel a sense of security and belonging here. I feel there’s somewhere I can talk when there’s nowhere else. I think I can be useful, I can teach something and learn more from others.

I’ve found friends through this blog and I intend to find more. I’ve learned a lot from them and I enjoy their messages now and then. So I’ll keep it alive for another day. Tomorrow, I hope to decide to keep it for one more.

I’ve experienced this a lot. Sometimes the most complicated problems we face in life, ones that mostly we created for ourselves, have the simplest solutions to fix. Sometimes we just don’t see it. Sometimes it’s so obvious we just can’t believe the problem we thought was so big, is just a small little inconvenience we can fix with littlest effort.

I was thinking about this huge problem I had in my digital life for some time and talking to a friend about it and it then hit me. Do this small effortless fix and everything will get back to normal. No need to bother myself or anyone else. This actually happened a lot and some of them were so trivial that I don’t even believe if the actual problem was that ridiculous.

Sometimes we just got to take a deep breath and just not to think about it.